The funny thing is… I want to feel you. I want to be with you. But finding out that she is trying to get pregnant shot me down so hard and fast that I'm angry all of a sudden.
I get an empty feeling in my gut, my heart slows down, my breathing fucks up, and everything I see becomes warped…out of place…wrong.
It should be me.
"We belong together." Silence. And as you lean forward my heart accelerates. "I would'nt be here if it werent true." And as soon as that (or something similair to that) comes out of your mouth everything in me is okay. There is no awful seperation. You're a part of me.
And now I look up to the classroom I'm in and reality slaps me so hard I can feel the tears spill over and the huge wall of doubt crushing me. I'm afraid of letting you feel all this…but even more afraid to have the link removed.
You said I wasn't alone. That you'd always be around. I'm scared…more so than usual. Only I don't know what I'm more afraid of… Telling my mother everything and telling her to fuck off and doing as I please and you deciding even after that that you don't want me…. Or living like this and losing you completely.
I get an empty feeling in my gut, my heart slows down, my breathing fucks up, and everything I see becomes warped…out of place…wrong.
It should be me.
"We belong together." Silence. And as you lean forward my heart accelerates. "I would'nt be here if it werent true." And as soon as that (or something similair to that) comes out of your mouth everything in me is okay. There is no awful seperation. You're a part of me.
And now I look up to the classroom I'm in and reality slaps me so hard I can feel the tears spill over and the huge wall of doubt crushing me. I'm afraid of letting you feel all this…but even more afraid to have the link removed.
You said I wasn't alone. That you'd always be around. I'm scared…more so than usual. Only I don't know what I'm more afraid of… Telling my mother everything and telling her to fuck off and doing as I please and you deciding even after that that you don't want me…. Or living like this and losing you completely.
