everything has changed

So he left me July 5th, 2011. He foudn someone twice my age and is now trying to have a baby with her. FUCKING UGH!
but im moving on.

i honestly just dont want to even give a shit anymore.

we lost our house...
me, liz (lover/ex/fucking eh), kim(lizs wife, two faced cunt that i love anyways blah) and Caressa ( my ex/two faced bitch).

so we are staying with my soul family. which consists of six people sometimes seven. plus us four in a two bedroom house >.> with only me and my big brother and my soul mom having jobs. bubba doesnt pay shit. but me and mom are always working our asses off. it fucking sucks.

ive been on and off with this guy trevor and he says he really cares about me. but he thinks i have a blood son thats 8. when in reality i have a blood brother that is 12 :/
but i raised him so i call him my son.....

but i wanted people to take me seriously when i say he's my son.
im sick of people saying "oh your not really his mother so you dont understand"

FUCK YOU!  cause my mother and step father where too far into their fucking bullshit addictions to even realize my son was born.
i love him more than anything else in this world. the song "god gave me you" is our song because we both realize in the end we are all we have.


anyways back to trevor the guy at work that i like.
he's black which will automatically get him shitty points with half my family and friends. but i figure they will be like well at least its  not a girl >.>
he's amazing and says he wants to be with me and spend time with me and yea but he actually has a son. kyler. i dont remembe rhow old he said he was tho. 2 i think :?
twenty three i think. <3
he's just ah. i mean when he kisses me i feel like maybe im okay ya kno?

im still dating other people tho cause he hasnt said he wants it exclusive

i had a wreck last week. my back is normally pretty fucked up now. its sucks. i really miss being able to do all kinds of shit. i work a town away from where im at and driving the gas guzzler i do is really killing me.
we cant find a house yet :/

im so sleepy right now honestly.... so im going to like get off here and chill. ill update more later <3