so

I'm not pregnant. Yea it kinda fucked up everything. we started fighting all the time.  and then... we exploded. now he is sleepin in the 2nd bedroom..... and im waking up screaming every night. my past has come to slap me in teh face and i feel so empty all the time its unreal....

on the happy note. I started college :D. I'm excited to actually be doing something. I'm thinkin about starting to go to the gym with his sister or his dads gf. Cause i REALLY need to make myself feel good. Maybe then we can have another shot but im not betting on it. Either way ill be okay.

im exhausted. work is kicking my ass. im so exhausted and i wish i wasnt. my chest has been botherin me alot....

i complain too much lol

-sigh- thats it for now i guess.