so im lost

I started therapy.
after completely losing my mind.

Ace and i are still together
Altho most nights i lay awake in our bed bawling
I'll be glad when I get some meds in me to help regulate my emotions

He doesnt want couples therapy which i think is stupid and selfish.
WE need therapy not just me.
I understand that I need to deal with my personal issues but we also have to work on us.

I just dont understand him

Seether is all that calms me anymore
Roses is a favorite of mine. Nobody is also.

My chest pains and flashbacks are still horrid.
I cant even be outside for longer than 2 minutes because its too hot for me. :(


we have a male roommate now. i could give a fuck less about HIM. but his son is my light every day <3

um... thats it for now :/